SHE THINKS WE'RE WITCHES!?
Great Day to everyone! I have really been feeling very supressed emotionally and have been working very hard to find out the root cause of this blockage. After much introspection, several things surfaced...
I am deeply in tune with what goes on in the world around me and there are so many tragedies happening on a mass scale from school shootings (MSU shootings, I am so sad for anyone who lost a child or has to help thier child cope with such trauma), to earthquakes, floods and of course, the typical cultural theme of police brutality. I am connected to them all, usually I express this frustration in some way but have been focused solely on business and haven't taken time to vent or even acknowledge it's effect on me.
I have been studying constantly, when I get this way, childhood wounds sneak up in regards to the things I "failed at" in life such as not continuing college, changing career fields several times and not following my Mothers dream for me of becoming a professional dancer and......
I am apart of a group of wonderful, powerful women, most of us practice alternative healing methods and add them to business practices or in my case have a non traditional spiritual business. Well, one of the members who don't agree with this shared a poorly misquoted piece of a Bible verse referencing burning sage and witchcraft being a sin.
Now, why does number three bother me so much that I decided to blog about it? The comment was completely unwarranted and serves as a trigger for me on many levels. I grew up a non denominational Christian, going to church was a mainstay in my life. When I decided to open my mind so that I could embrace every part of myself, I decided to hide my journey and deny my spiritual gifts. This has been the source of much pain in my life, to embrace "occult" concepts openly, I moved away from my family and everything I knew. The decision to share what I learned with my family, specifically my Father, was a challenging experience to say the least. I was called the devil repeatedly and told that there was NO GOD IN ME! Even though I knew this wasn't true, wanting to align with the indoctrination of being raised "right", I abandoned my personal spiritual journey to become a Christain again. After years of pretending, I decided to listen to MY INNER VOICE and follow my bliss so that I could be happy!
Once again, I had to walk away from everything I knew to be comfortable seeking after what I found to be the truth, only to be ganged up on by my sister and my father in a phone conversation, two days after my 39th solar return. I was questionsed about being a witch. Though my father said he wouldn't be mad if I was, he proceeded to inform me about Bible verses that go against certain practices as well as sharing stories about my mother's family befriending a witch that cursed them. This argument was so disturbing, I dealt with back pain for several months, as we know, emotional trauma can damage our physical body. Eventually, I moved on, only to one day be insulted by a very dear friend, I shared that I was experiencing personal issue (which is what you do with friends, I thought so anyway) and she asked if I was sure I had been praying to "GOD"? Needless to say, we are no longer friends. Soon after that experience, I ran into my sister, asked her for assistance only to hear that she didn't feel comfortable being around me because I was "calling on the spirits"!
My journey has been full of people I love rejecting me based on their misconception of who I am and what I do. When that sister shared that completely unneccesary message, it brought up all my personal trauma around religion, spirituality, prophets, seers etc. I could share all the biblical and philisophical reasons why venerating Ancestors and/or Ancestor worship, praying to Orisha's, using smudge sticks, gemstones, crystals, herbs and incense assist in raising the vibration for humanity but instead I will share my personal opinion. I am righteous of intent, I have a pure heart, I wouldn't harm anyone unless it's for the highest and greatest good (meaning justice). There is divinity in me, just as there is divinity within a Christian, Muslim or any other religious practitioner. I know, that the light in me would not call me to embrace ANYTHING that would not serve a higher purpose and of this, I have no doubt. The lowest part of me is served when I attempt to condemn others for whatever they seek. There is no need for me to force my beliefs on others, nothing is gained, it just serves a personal need to be BETTER than someone else.
I am willing to admit, my prayer life is not the traditional ideal of societies "holy" woman but I do pray often. I do NOT pray to any lower vibrational enitities, whether we call it the devil, idles or whatever. When we decide to blurt out our biased opinions as a form of allegiance to our "GOD" or "Deity" it's rarely expressed because of our love for someone and desire to save them but instead our fear of truth and lack of courage to explore the Universe and it's vast possibilities. So, the real question is, am I witch? Are individuals like me, male, female or otherwise practicing witchcraft? The answer is, I am a spiritual woman (being) with no fear of how deep I may need to dive to find the truth about what lives within me, how to build a relationship with "it" and have the life I deserve... I AM THAT! I feel that anyone on this path with righteous intent are the same.
Thank you for reading, be well and stay well
Yashi
Comments